Circling the drain in an overflowing pool

I feel the need to desensitize myself from my current reality.
I feel the need to be calm and breathe.
I feel the need to accept all and be at peace with things.
I feel the need to find a real sense of tranquility.
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Oh.
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Breathe.
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B-R-E-A-T-H-E
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OH.
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I feel the need to kick your fucking face in.
I feel the need to run over you with my car, back up, & do it again.
I feel the need to hogtie you with your own hair and roast you over a spit-fire.
I feel the need to tell you things won't work out for you out of spite.
I feel the need to scream at you until I lose my own voice.
I feel the need to emasculate you in a VERY public way.
I feel the need to take a louisville slugger to your precious car.
I feel the need to punch your lights out and strangle you with my belt.
I feel the need to steal your identity and fuck with your credit.
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B-R-E-A-T-H-E
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I am livid.
I am angered.
I am enraged.
I am pissed.
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God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
The courage to change the things I can,
and the wisdom to know the difference.